Bad place for this, or time, not sure which--probably both.
Perhaps and only perhaps the greatest fear is a the frailty of people. People break as do machines but machines reliably run until broken. You know when an engine has a problem but the same cannot be said for people. Too many devices can go wrong and still the person machine is reliable in the sense that it still functions. The tumor can grow with little affect until its too late to reverse the damage.
The numbers and calculations never end in that sense. What are the odds of cancer, heart disease, contracting HIV from some random and terrible incident (contact with blood at the supermarket)? What does the role of the absurd have in this: there's a first time for everything and it may as well be yours. And more appropriately what do the odds have to do with anything? Absurdity is free to strike at will and all the odds have nothing to do with this. Flip a coin. Maybe heads, maybe tails but it will strike randomly and without reason.
Regardless, the work that proceeds from the random is a reflection of this. Time determines calculation, the dice determine the number, the stats don't lie but can be poorly interpreted. But maybe the stats do lie and the flip of the coin determines more than I'd like to think.
Or maybe it's all the product of a broken mind.
No one ever said life was guaranteed.
